الأربعاء، 17 مارس 2010

Dreamt Not To Cry Anymore....

Hours... Days... Months....

They all run as fast as a frightened Rabbit...

And Here I Am... Stuck in another dimension where time doesn't exist...

People grow up... change... then die... while I'm still not born yet...

It feels like all these years I've been witnessing are nothing but shadows of a dream...

Another dream....

Every time I look into that mirror I see no face... all I see are silly tears...

Every time I touch the mirror... I swear not to cry anymore...

I swear to start over again...

I promise myself that Life is Great! And there will be no more Tears ... anymore...

But again.... whenever I look in that mirror... I can't see my face...

All I see... Tears... and more Tears...

Tears that keep blaming me why to lie...

Why to promise myself things that don't exist...

Why to swear?

A hundred "Why" ... and not Even ONE single answer to ease the pain that breaks my soul into million pieces....

Those tears...

Falling so fast...

Just the way time runs...

As fast as a frightened rabbit....


الجمعة، 26 فبراير 2010

Dreamt to Be With You




How dark it feels inside my heart...
I dreamt to be with you...
Wished to be with you...
no....
I prayed... a lot... really hard...
I prayed to be next to you... Too close that I can touch your face
just one touch...
could save my tortured heart which became nothing but ashes
"and like a broken mirror, everything inside me is shattered"
too many pieces
too many lost pieces...
it feels that day by day... I'm losing myself
that I can find nothing but shadows of some old memories
and frozen tears...
day by day...
evil invades me that holding grudges becomes hobby
hate becoms dessert...
and sorrow befriends me till I forget how to smile.

Yet....
Somewhere inside me... beneath the ruins...
I'm sure... you're still there...
somewhere inside me there is (something) left for you and only you...

and oneday...
so soon...
I'll be close to you....
and that part you own inside of me...
will grow big...
big enough to fix me ...
to erase the pain....
and all the dark memories...
that part will grow big enough...
To SAVE me
from the one that I've become..

Until that day ...

I'll keep dreaming..


To be WITH YOU.....